My apologies for not writing sooner. Lets just say 2012 has been hectic already. It started off horriibly.
My fiance came home (yay!!) but he fucked up New Years. I am a grudger. Do you know what a grudger is? No, its not this-->
Not a person who is a super fan of all the Grudge movies. Well, maybe it is, but not in my case.
In my case its more like this:
Fuck you and leave me alone. I hold grudges very well, for a very long time. I have an extremely difficult time letting things go. Well, in my life, New Years is huge, the midnight kiss is HUGE BIG GIGANTIC etc. It's a big deal to me. I have never had a new years kiss. My fiance was supposed to my first. My first New Years kiss. Guess where he was at?
Not with me!!!!
No, he went to a New Years part. The thing is, earlier that day, I had asked him if we were going to spend it together, he said . . . . YES!! (did he mean it? Maybe. Was he there? NO!!) He told me he thought he would be back from the New Years party to spend it with me. But, ITS A NEW YEARS PARTY!! Are you really going to leave the NEW YEARS PARTY before New Years?
Hahahahaha the really funny part is, he could have had me drove there. He was only like 15 minutes away, but, did he? NO.
Thankfully, I did not spend it alone. I spent it with a friend I haven't seen in a long time. It was nice, but, honestly, I wish i spent it with him.
I guess it could be my fault becuase I did not tell him how important it was to me. I just assumed that he would know, because I've only told him a million times that he is my first boyfriend. I thought that would mean that he would no i never had a kiss at midnight on new years.
Yeah, i whined. Im sorry if that is a waste of your time.
Oh, and my baby sister pretty much hated my gutz the first two days of New Years, so that ruined it for me.
But, my apologies for ranting and raving and whining.
It hasn't been all bad. My fiance has finally moved in with me :) and I got my books for this semester. Ive been fighting with doing it all christmas break. I finally decided, I am. And, the headache is starting behind my eyes.
Hey!
Nothing in life is ever easy.
I was told by a finacial aid lady this: If you have doubt, don't.
My responce (that i will not tell her to her face): BULLSHIT! If i followed that rule, i wouldnt be educated. Id be at home crying and being a helpless blob. I would be with my fiance, he wouldn't be working. I wouldn't have made friends. Doubt is tied into fear, and fear is what stops a lot of us
Primarily me.
ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
I am one chicken
. Mhm, that's me. I am scared, all of the time.
My fiance came home (yay!!) but he fucked up New Years. I am a grudger. Do you know what a grudger is? No, its not this-->
In my case its more like this:
Not with me!!!!
No, he went to a New Years part. The thing is, earlier that day, I had asked him if we were going to spend it together, he said . . . . YES!! (did he mean it? Maybe. Was he there? NO!!) He told me he thought he would be back from the New Years party to spend it with me. But, ITS A NEW YEARS PARTY!! Are you really going to leave the NEW YEARS PARTY before New Years?
Hahahahaha the really funny part is, he could have had me drove there. He was only like 15 minutes away, but, did he? NO.
Thankfully, I did not spend it alone. I spent it with a friend I haven't seen in a long time. It was nice, but, honestly, I wish i spent it with him.
I guess it could be my fault becuase I did not tell him how important it was to me. I just assumed that he would know, because I've only told him a million times that he is my first boyfriend. I thought that would mean that he would no i never had a kiss at midnight on new years.
Yeah, i whined. Im sorry if that is a waste of your time.
Oh, and my baby sister pretty much hated my gutz the first two days of New Years, so that ruined it for me.
But, my apologies for ranting and raving and whining.
It hasn't been all bad. My fiance has finally moved in with me :) and I got my books for this semester. Ive been fighting with doing it all christmas break. I finally decided, I am. And, the headache is starting behind my eyes.
Hey!
Nothing in life is ever easy.
I was told by a finacial aid lady this: If you have doubt, don't.
My responce (that i will not tell her to her face): BULLSHIT! If i followed that rule, i wouldnt be educated. Id be at home crying and being a helpless blob. I would be with my fiance, he wouldn't be working. I wouldn't have made friends. Doubt is tied into fear, and fear is what stops a lot of us
Primarily me.
I am one chicken
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