Hey

I promise to try to keep this blog interesting and entertaining, but no guarantees. I am only 18, i work 30+ hours and go to college full time. I don't usually have free time but I'll try to write and update when i can.

Faded Candy Canes is the name of this blog because the one i wanted was taken for the URL and i wasn't about to have my blog title and my blog URL be completely different. Faded Candy Canes adds a mystical air to this.

I used to have a girl crush at girls state. I am completely straight, don't get me wrong, i have a boyfriend. But this girl just dazzled me. She was so comfortable with who she was, it was just shocking. She taught herself how to play the guitar. She could sing. She could rap. She had so many friends and so many people. She had an electric personality. She had long brown hair that just kinda strayed away from her face. She was loud and obnoxious but quiet and timid, no not timid, that's the wrong word, she was quiet but understanding, quiet but there, no, never not there, she just wasn't always the center of attention, but there was like a magnetic field that drew people towards her. She was my second girl crush.

Not that I ever did anything to her. I was way too shy for that, last summer. Summer 2010. Never had a boyfriend before that, never had a girlfriend before that. 16. never been kissed. none of that.

But not now, i have a boyfriend whom i think i love him. i say think because i am a thinking person. i dont usually do anything unless im sure of it (if given the time to think it over).

Like i just died my hair over the weekend. Some like, some hate it. I dunno how i feel about it. I kinda miss my dark chocolate hair, but i kinda like the lighter red. I figure it'll probably stay because i dont hate it, i just dont know if i love it. I wanted to do it all summer and finally got the guts up to do it.

Anyways, i think i love him. He is my first boyfriend, my second kiss, my first makeout session. First guy for me to stay out all night with. He opened a whole new world for me. I love him. I really think i do. Some days i feel like I love him, other days i think I do and others i just do love him. He's gone right now the Basics for the military.

Well, its not late, but i have HW to do, so Im gonna go do that. Good night.